Sep 22 2015

Sticking My Neck Out

And I take full responsibility for my words and the consequences they may bring. Because I am certainly not perfect.

I see this posted here and there. That we, “need God in the schools”. We need God here or there.

I don’t think that we need God anywhere other than were he is already, or should be, in the hearts of millions of believers, period.

Would it really make a difference? I think not, since most of the hate and judgement that I see is from those who “quote” God and use him as the platform for a belief system that in my opinion is contrary to the God that I was raised on and learned about in the Christian Church.

I think about my youth and what I believed and what I thought about God, church and people. And I am glad that my Mom, Merle McConnell or whom ever was there to teach and build my foundation for belief were compassionate, open and not closed off or judgmental.

I realize that the path I was on in high school could have sent me in an entirely different direction. I honestly believe that I was on a path to persecute and judge those around me. God only knows why I thought that was my job. So thank you God or whom ever for keeping my mind open and curious and for taking no words for granted.

In my opinion, if we are to be true believers then God says a few things about that. I don’t need to list a line of scripture here because most of you, apparently spend more time in the bible than I do these days. I think you know what I am talking about. Love others as I have loved you. Turn the other cheek. Judge not lest you be judged. But maybe some of you should go back and read the entire book consider the context and the time it was written. But that’s just me.

If we have God in our hearts and minds then how should that translate in how we treat all of God’s children? No, seriously. I’m asking. If we love God, how do you show him your love?

Let me cheat here a little bit here with this quote because I love it!

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So back to my question. Would it really make a difference and what do you mean, we need God in schools or here or there? I was thinking, we added God to the Pledge of Allegiance in the 50’s and look where we are today.

Do we need to have it in front of us all the time to remember? On the wall, in a book, over the door that we or our kids walk through? Flashing at us at every corner like a walk/don’t walk sign? Is that really going to make a difference?

Are we so weak that unless we have it in our face every day like a Kardashian that we are unable to just be the loving, caring, compassionate beings that God created us to be….if he in fact created us?

Here’s more trouble.

If he did create us in his image, how is it that we (or some of us) feel that his image is vengeful and judgmental. That any of us truly no what his intentions were? Go ahead, place scripture reference here.

If we are to believe this, then how is it that we can judge those we know nothing about by actions reported in the media, liberal or otherwise. By nuance or innuendo? Do we blindly believe what others say just because if fits what we think is right or wrong? Oh and don’t get me started on right or wrong! Cause I’m thinking, some of what some of you think as right or wrong, in my opinion are not for you and I to decide.

If we are to believe this(or if I am to believe this), how is is that we believe venomous hateful speech from a few who have been given an open forum to judge, denigrate and splash hate at those different than the skewed version of a human they believe we should all be.

Sometimes I login to that place call Facebook and leave crying for the things I see or read that others have written or shared.

Because if you deem yourself in a position to judge and condemn, in my opinion how can you say you believe in God. Again, not the God I learned about growing up.

Someone said a while back that they where going to worry more about what God thought of them than others here on earth right now. Well, yeah I guess. Since God will judge you on judgement day. Don’t you think that he will look at you and question how you spoke about or treated his other children? To me this is ironic? Or contradictory or actually kinda crazy at best.

If there is a God. I too worry what he will think of me if those gates are real and they are pearly. Will he say, good job! Or will he say, you disenfranchise the poor. Kicked those who were down. Passed judgement on those you knew nothing about. Robbed the poor and stole from the blind. And twisted my words so out of context that I’m even afraid of your judgement of me. Your call I guess based on what kind of God you believe in.

I don’t know anything. Never have, never will. But I have to believe that if there is a God, he wants us to love and care for one another. That there should be no discrimination of that love that all of his children are worthy of that love, just as he has loved us. But what I am I to believe with so many clergy or people who present themselves a Godly are the ones casting the most judgment and just being down right mean. What has happened to them that they have such fear?

I see so much hatred. So much judgement. And for what? No seriously! For what?

I think we need God in our hearts and minds. Act like we are servants of him and treat one another with compassion, kindness and the love we all deserve. Yes, there will be people who will tempt and test you…just remember what Jesus did or said to those who tested and tempted him.

If we are to not believe this, then what are we to believe?


Sep 13 2015

Passive Aggressive Post

This place, Facebook is such an interesting place. Is it a true window into the hearts and minds of those you thought you knew? Some you barely know and those you wonder if you really ever knew?

Some days the things I see and read here break my heart. Bring me to tears. And too often are void of the joy that does surround us. How did we get here?

People are different. People have different opinions, beliefs, ideas and ideals.

Now this is just me but some of the opinions I read, I can rarely find facts for. And on a regular basis debunk. Granted some think that the Internet is not the place to find information, (according to a comment on a string I was part of a while back). But it’s what I have. Sure I could go to the library or wherever that individual goes for his info. But I’m lazy so Google and the internets it is. And I read all sides, not just the side I agree with. And I don’t read traditional news resources or outlets. I try to go to the source and vet it if I can. Not always easy.

I also don’t try to imagine that I have any idea what the intent of something written 50, 100 or even 2000 years ago. Hell sometimes I don’t remember the intent of things wrote last month! And I always question if it’s real or truth.

I saw my Naturopath last week and he said, “uh-oh, gloom and doom again”. We worked through it and am working through it. There is an occasional ray of hope! An occasional good thing here or there.

I guess my point of writing this is to ask. Do we really hate at the level I read? Am I too sensitive? Do I need to get over it and let it go? How did our differences turn into such disrespect and hate? What does it say about us, that in my opinion, we write and share hateful, hurtful, disrespectful things?

And yes, I am paying attention. Just so there is no question. But is hate and vitriol the answer?

What if we all just let go and got over it? And moved on! Moved on to what? Maybe we could move onto a kinder, gentler and respectful discourse. A true discourse. A factual discourse with solutions. I can hope or dream can’t I?

The acceptance of what some are saying today is at a level of hatred and disdain that to be honest; I didn’t think we had it in us. To openly discount another human and have millions cheer you? And listen?! I just don’t get it.

Do we become a nation of intolerant, vengeful beings looking out only for me, myself and I? Do we do nothing to help the disadvantaged, the abused, the hungry, the veterans who served and protected because of a few bad apples? Do we kick those who are down as we pat ourselves on the back for being righteous and God fearing? (And there is a whole other topic! Fear God? Not the one I was taught about growing up in church…I digress) How is it that one sentence or partial sentence from the bible gains such momentum and others ignored?

Do we become so blinded by the hate that we can’t even actually have a discussion about solutions because we are lost in name calling, finger pointing and a blame game that is endless and pointless and will never get us anywhere. I guess one would have to actually have a solution. Or be interested in a solution.

What have we come to? What is our intent? Our purpose? If we are to believe this book the bible that so many like to quote. God says love one another. Not just this group or that group, this religion or this race or people from that country. LOVE ONE ANOTHER AS I HAVE LOVED YOU. Ok, so I took one sentence or a version of one sentence and use it to make my point. GUILTY! What does that sentence or concept mean to you?

Again, that’s just my opinion.

And now a promise to not participate in the negative hate and disrespect of anyone. How about you…got solutions or just more posting and sharing of juvenile name calling and factless, untrue stories?

Sep 6 2015

That Depends….

on what version of God we go with.

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Mar 1 2014

Nothing is Forever

I’ve been thinking lately, for a long while actually, that nothing is forever. I think and believe that compassion should be forever.

“Hatred brings more hatred, and violence only brings more violence. What we must do is stop this cycle here and now by transforming anger and hatred into compassion.”

Hatred for me is a pretty big word. It feels a certain way. The word hatred carries a pretty intense extreme feeling. But hatred has many levels. From the simple discomfort that fear brings to someone when something or someone is different from them or changes. To the extreme that results in physical violence to another. It’s something that causes an action of oppression of another at any level. Any level.

Hatred is real and shouldn’t be dismissed. But should be carefully checked, worked through and never acted on. Other’s hatred blinds us and our own hatred blinds us as well.

“The real enemy is their anger, our anger, their hatred, our hatred, their violence, our violence.”

Nothing is forever, but compassion should be.

Be descent. To everyone. Stop, take a breath and think before you speak or act.

Quotes are from, The Real Enemy, part of Tricycle’s Winter 2001 special section, “September 11: Practice and Perspectives. Other articles in the series can be found here.

Feb 15 2014

I’d Stand with Sam

It’s hard to explain why I feel the way that I do. That in some ways is so contrary to some that I know. Sometimes so contrary, well so contrary that it makes me wonder, have we always been this far away from each other?

I watch this;

I watch this;

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And I cry. I don’t know if I cry because of how grateful I am for what these two have said, for so many of the wonderful people in my life that I love and care for, or because so many believe they are wrong.

Like feelings or love has a right or wrong. (you know what I mean) That we as a species can love and tolerate some, but cast aside others like trash or criminals. For me that’s fear at it’s worst.

Students in Missouri “Stand with Sam” and blocked the Westboro Baptist Church from doing what they do. I hope the parents of those students are proud of them.

There is goodness in our world. There is compassion and love for others. Why does this create such dissension? Who is it hurting?

It’s hard to explain why I feel the way that I do. Is it because of how my parents raised me? Bringing me up in a church that was open and shut no one out. Is it because of my cousin who I will never know if he was happy? Or was able to live the life, short as it was, that he wanted and was able to be loved and feel love. Is it because of the amazing people in my life who share my feelings?

It’s hard to explain why my heart hurts when I think about the things that people say about and to others that they know nothing about.

I’m not the smartest person in the room most of the time. All the time probably. I hope instead that at the very least I’m always fair, descent and compassionate toward those around me. Never hurting anyone, never saying anything so as to create a wave that directly or indirectly hurts another.

It’s hard to explain why I feel the way that I do. But I’m glad that I do feel the way that I do.

Thanks Mom and Dad and who ever else out there taught me to love no matter what. To be open hearted and open minded. To not judge or disenfranchise others. To consider others equal and deserving of every good thing in life, no matter what.

Aug 22 2013


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Mar 4 2013

Safe Journey

There is a park bench in Manhattan that quietly wonders where his faithful friend is.

This bench on 6th Avenue between Spring and Prince in Father Fagan Park that for nearly 50 years welcomed this friend his family and friends, hearing hundreds of stories. This bench wishes his friend a safe journey. Godspeed.

Some day soon we will be sharing stories again, on another bench in a different place and time. We may not recognize each other, but we will feel the warm comfort of familiarity on a bench, on an avenue, between two streets in a park where stories are told.

I love you dear Uncle and miss you.


Jan 10 2013

Prior to 1954….

Are we better today then before 1954? I wish I had the resources and researchers to do the numbers and find out if we were.

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“I was having dinner with my 82-year old mom last night and we got to talking politics. Tis the season, after all. I don’t remember exactly how this came up, but I think it was in the context of the Republican apoplexy over Democrats dropping reference to God in their party platform and Romney pledging to keep the word God on our coins (’cause I guess that’s a key element of his Jobs Program, or something). My mom said she remembered that as a young girl, the Pledge of Allegiance they recited everyday in school was simply, “I pledge allegiance to the flag of the United States of America, and to the Republic for which it stands, one Nation indivisible, with liberty and justice for all.” No mention of God anywhere.

My mom my be old, but she’s not senile, so I assumed her memory was accurate. Still I decided to Fact Check this morning (it’s all the rage these days). A simple search of the tubes confirmed that the words “under God” weren’t added to the Pledge until June, 1954 by a Joint Resolution of Congress.

But just as interesting, if not more so, was the Pledge of Allegiance was originally written back in 1892 by an avowed Christian Socialist who thought Capitalism was “idolatrous and rooted in greed”. That’s right, our nation’s Pledge was written by a stinkin’ Socialist. How’s that for insidious? I don’t suppose too many of our Republican friends know this, or I think we’d be seeing a mass epidemic of spontaneous cranial implosions on the streets by now.

Do you think we should tell them and enjoy the ensuing meltdown, or just smile with smug satisfaction every time we see a Republican reciting the Pledge?”

My Mom, someone I consider very religious says, I got along very well before 1954. So that says to me or makes me think, is this our problem?

Did we hate as we do today? Did we take life for granted as we do today? Do many of us live at a pace that tramples and gives no consideration to those around us? Are we accountable for our contribution to the emotional wake we leave? Did we have easy access to machines that can kill hundreds of people or children just going about their day? Did we individually think that our way was the only way, my way or the highway?

I said it in my last post and will repeat it.

I don’t believe that we need God in the schools for us to be the good descent caring human beings. We are stronger and better than that. Be accountable at home; take care of your own house. We have to be responsible for our families and ourselves in terms of goodness, spirituality and religion. That responsibility lies nowhere else.

Dec 19 2012

What if we tried?

I don’t believe that my neighbor, Dad, Uncle, Brother or any American has any need for a semi-automatic assault rifle.  That type of weapon is for the military.  I don’t want to take your damn gun away.  I’m not even going to try to pry it out of your cold dead hands.  But I ask.  Do we really need machines that can shoot hundreds of bullets and be able to buy thousands of round of ammunition unchecked?

Senator Chuck Shumer said it Sunday morning no amendment is absolute.  A friend commented on a Facebook post weeks ago, “there are no absolutes”.  It seems that from the Bible on we individually interpret words to meet or match what we want, or to create absolutes. If we are to take words and use them for laws and legislation for the entire county to abide by, what if we try to interpret words in an effort to save lives?  Or interpret words that support more than our own personal needs, wants or agendas.  Words and ideas that support the needs of an ever changing world and society.  Not just with some control on what kind of gun or how much ammunition one can get, but how we collectively treat or speak to each other about our differences.  They are only going to grow.

I do believe that we have to try something.  To not is to fail everything we are, everything we have or hope to be.

If you must have a gun, lock it, lock it and lock it UP!  Especially if you have children that require extra attention and care.  In that case, maybe having a gun in the house isn’t a good idea and it should be stored elsewhere.  At least so you know or until you are sure it won’t be turned against you or very innocent undeserving men, women and children.

I don’t believe that we need God in the schools for us to be the good descent caring human beings. We are stronger and better than that.  Be accountable at home; take care of your own house. We have to be responsible for our families and ourselves in terms of goodness, spirituality and religion.  That responsibility lies nowhere else.

I read a lot.  I read a lot of opinions.  And I read the comments, probably a mistake.  Some make me cry, some make me sick and some just PISS me off.  But mostly the level of hate that we humans throw at each other, at people we don’t even know.  What people save and pull from the past in terms of the negative truly surprises me.  Like some how what someone did or said months or years ago is still true today.  To take something out of context is just wrong and deceitful.  And serves no one. 

This world that I am living in and navigating this lifetime, shifts and changes as quickly as the seconds tick away.  So to hold true or as truth something that was said or done in the past is only done in an effort to oppress and keep us in the past.  Leaving no effort to move forward. 

I’m only one person and I’m not in a position to make changes, nor should I be.  But I can speak for what I hope in a calmer, more peaceful, gentler world.

What if we tried to be better and consider this ever changing world we live in and the people that share it with us?

Dec 16 2012

Some Control?

There is a 2nd Amendment, yes. All the other amendments are read and viewed expensively and not through …(the site of a gun) … No amendment is absolute.

1st amendment, you can’t scream “fire” in a crowded movie theater. There are limits on liable and pornography.

Is there a middle? At least maybe an attempt to see if a change could help? A ban or limit on assault weapons and limit the size of the clip. Isn’t there something, anything we can do to try to limit access to those with mental issues?

BTW – This is only part of the conversation that needs to happen. But no Republican was available for this conversation this morning on Face the Nation.

Sen. Chuck Schumer, D-N.Y, Face the Nation